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Post by Pacmanite on Feb 14, 2012 7:15:23 GMT -5
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Post by Pacmanite on Feb 6, 2012 10:26:45 GMT -5
The weekend of 30/31 sounds all right for me too. =)
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 24, 2012 8:55:55 GMT -5
Why yes. I do enjoy looking at the ground for lost pennies.
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 23, 2012 17:09:00 GMT -5
I'm late in announcing this here, but the residence I received from our prayers has been very good. Hughes Parry Hall, one of the Intercollegiate Halls, is feeling good, like a home already. So I'm thankful for this. It's a nice place to be, so central in London too.
I will pray for your friend's nephew Levi, Storm. That sounds a terrible thing to happen to someone so very young.
And I want to request prayers for salvation for an unsaved friend. Who knows what will come of this, it's all in God's hands anyway, but I believe He wants us to raise these things up to Him.
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 20, 2012 19:54:51 GMT -5
I think it is possible to rationally intend to endure painful suffering in order to get a reward.
I think intention is committed in the heart, but often it is difficult to judge the honesty of such intentions. So look at the actions which come about. Actions flow from intentions as helplessly as fruit fall from trees. If you decide to pick up a pen, you pick up the pen, you don't stop to think for no reason of not picking up your pen, you just do it. Intervening events may interrupt the action, or prompt a reassessment of what to do, but my view is that honest intention when left to its own devices naturally leads to action.
The dilemma for me here is that you seem to want to try to find a way of intending to drink the poison, while also intending to change your mind at the last moment. That for me means that I didn't honestly intend to drink the poison. Because I'd notice that, I'd then have to tell myself two things - "I intend to drink the poison AND I intend not to change my mind." And I can't honestly make that statement while thinking that I'll go back on what I've decided. It really is impossible for me to intend to do something while also intending not to do it. That is a contradiction. You cannot intend to do two mutually opposed actions simultaneously.
And if you think of reassessing your decision later, then you're actually doing the reassessment right now while you're thinking of it. Because the only reason you'd want to reassess your decision is to get out of drinking the poison.
So in order to really mean it, you'd have to put the possibility of getting away with not drinking the poison completely out of your mind. Difficult, but doable, I think.
For me, I'd probably have a bit an honour thing about keeping to my word.
Midnight: "Yes I will drink the poison, and I do not intend to change my mind about the matter."
Morning: How dare I make myself a liar? *drinks poison*
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 18, 2012 7:27:58 GMT -5
Looks like I won't have any classes on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday this semester.  |
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 17, 2012 19:11:25 GMT -5
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 13, 2012 18:31:30 GMT -5
I'm in London until June, and I'd be really stoked to be at an NTWF meetup.  |
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 3, 2012 16:15:42 GMT -5
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Post by Pacmanite on Jan 3, 2012 12:06:26 GMT -5
Photos! =D  Red Telephone box = <3  The double deckers are everywhere!  My Hall of Residence, from the outside.  Platform Nine and Ten at King's Cross Station! I assume Platform Nine-And-Three-Quarters is somewhere in the middle, but you need to swipe your Oyster ticket over the barriers first.  British Museum yeah!  |
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Post by Pacmanite on Dec 31, 2011 1:18:19 GMT -5
Yay! It's great that you're in London too, Elycien!
=D =D So pumped. My flight is scheduled to leave at 11:59 tonight, that is, right on New Years Eve. ;D
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Post by Pacmanite on Dec 28, 2011 8:15:45 GMT -5
Thanks Teow, I think I'll try hosting my files on Tindeck and see if that works out better. |
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Post by Pacmanite on Dec 27, 2011 7:42:10 GMT -5
Aw, darn. It seems that my file host has deleted all of my music. =( Does anyone know a reliable file host that I can upload stuff on which won't periodically delete all my music for no reason? --- In the meantime, I've recorded a practice-run of a new composition, on piano. It's about my personal tragedy with a boy who I deeply crushed on but I can't let myself have. It's supposed to be a song and it has words, but I'm not up to singing it yet and I don't wish to post all the lyrics here, or at least not yet. The song is extremely close to me heart. It was written during the worst agony I ever felt in my life, so I don't expect it would necessarily be the most accomplished musical composition I've done. (And it's different in style from the more classical-sounding pieces I usually do). But it is the most genuine in feeling, I believe. Title: God in my heart (Original Composition, piano accompaniment to a vocal song) Date: recording taken 27 December 2011, written from October-December 2011 Notes: </3 File: www.toofiles.com/en/oip/audios/mp3/godinmyheartpractice27_12_2011.html |
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Post by Pacmanite on Dec 16, 2011 22:13:26 GMT -5
Actually, I live quite near two of the three hotels. =D I wonder if I can sneak in and just have a look at it? They make it sound as if it's hidden somewhere unexpected in one of the hotels...
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Post by Pacmanite on Dec 14, 2011 20:43:59 GMT -5
The strain that the post office has to bear at Christmas. >< Mostly because I work at the post office and the huge pile of parcels filling up the back of the store is really... urgh. And I think I strained my shoulder trying to move some of those heavy parcels around. There's just... too many of them! All at once! The post just can't really cope well. And it's so frustrating to not be able to find a parcel in the monstrous pile while there's a big long queue of customers waiting for you and getting impatient.
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