letters to no one.

[KitClairvoyance]

You are the reason I wake with a smile on my face, the reason why I know I can make it past each day. You offered to share my future with me, and now we're almost there. You help me through work and life, even when you're not there. For you I'd give the world and my dreams and my life. With you I know I have a reason in life, a reason to work harder, a reason to live and let live. You have seen my tears, my joy, my raw mind. To you I dedicate each beat of my heart, each breath of my soul, and each step of my life.

Snap. Crack. Beat.

You will probably not see this, for you are hardly here, but maybe someday you will, and I want you to know that you're an important part of my life. You have been with me through thick and thin, through crud and joy. You have grown with me, and have walked by my side. Ever since you called me your friend, I have called you mine. Never will I deny you a place by my fireside, or a share in my future. When the sun eventually sets, I know you will be there to watch it set with me.

Fly. Feather. Fly. Remember. Fly.

You are the one who is always here for me. With you, I know I will find a conversation. In you, I have already found friendship, love, joy, and so much more. You are the person I look for first when I come here. You mean more to me than I thought you ever could, you know me better than most ever will. I will inevitably miss you when you have to go for more than a day. I look forward to seeing you grow, both here and in the world. And I pray that you won't forget me, even when we've both moved on, and I won't forget you.

Dream. Receive. Silence.

You may not know it, but I've admired you ever since I first saw your post. You are talented beyond words and colours, and I respect you for that. You are fun, loving, and just seeing you makes me happy. You have grown from an acquaintance to a good friend. You never complain, and see the best in people. You are the one whose friendship I'll always treasure.

Breathe. In. In.

You are always the first to greet me when I sign on MSN. You never fail to find something to talk about, never fail to add another archive to my collection. You are the one I have to tuck into bed almost every night. We have exchanged so many gifts, so many conversations. You fangirl everything to death, and it never ceases to amuse me. With you I know I'll find something new each day. I look forward to meeting you in person. I do.

Float. Levitate. Divine.

You I have only known for a relatively short time, and yet you've endeared yourself to me quicker than anyone ever has. You are the one I care for, the one I wish to protect as best as I can. You are special. You are always welcome if you want to just talk, or a shoulder to cry on, or just a hug. You I will never turn away. For you, I would drop everything to help, to care and to share a laugh.

Turn. Twirl. Spiral.

And. I wish.

I could write one for you too.

Yes. You.

In the future.

I will.

<3

[Shadaras]

You are one of the few people I trust with my heart. You made me open up, whether you know it or not. You have changed me so, so much. And I can’t help but wait, watching for you, hoping. You are one of the anchors in my life. You, more than anything else, are the reason I come back here, day after day. And I wouldn’t change that for anything. You are the person that I would call my closest friend, and I love you for it. Thank you for everything, even what has not yet come to pass.

* * *

You may never see this. In some ways, I hope you don’t. But I should still write this to you. You’re keeping more secrets from me than I know. You never fail to make everyone around you laugh. But you make me close up, make me hide. And that is something that is my own fault as much as yours. But still, you can’t be anything but a part of my life. And you are a bard, a ‘paparazzi’, and a friend to so many people. You are more comfortable around them than I could be. I’m so glad you exist. I don’t know who I’d be without you here to share life’s adventures with me.

* * *

You write stories with emotion. You write stories with plot. You write more than I hope for. You are missed, though you still come here. You are a friend to me, one that I love. I never fail to smile and get excited when you come online. You bring so much energy with you that it rubs off on everyone around you. Though I don’t see as much of you as I wish I did, I still love you, my friend. Of course I do. I care for you, and I wish you well in all you do.

* * *

What can I say about you? You are like your friends, in many ways. You are fire, all of you. But you..

I never expected you to be my friend. I don’t even know how it happened. But we can laugh about our characters, plot things to happen to them, and be all hyper and happy about them. You made the open offer that led to that. You triggered that with something that I couldn’t help but be gleeful about. Did you know that, at the time? I don’t know. I doubt I ever will. But those little mysteries are what make life so exciting, aren’t they? You are someone I enjoy talking to, someone who can bring a certain sparkle with them. You and your friends have led me towards things that I wouldn’t have known about otherwise. I don’t know whether to thank you or cringe at them, but they’re a part of me now. Thank you for being my friend, either way.

* * *

I don’t talk to you very much. But you are still someone I’d call a friend. Thank you for being a part of this forum. Thank you for bringing him here. Thank you.

* * *

One last one, I guess. I can’t help it. You. If you came here.. I don’t know what I’d do. You’re Shadowfrog. You’re the coyote and the red-tail. And you’re you, which is more than those can encompass. But yeah. I love you. It’s as simple as that.

[Deleted]

You shouldn't feel like a lousy author. You aren't. You're an amazing writer. You're the person who made me wake up and realize what it means to be an author. When I, a careless, 10-page-24-pt-font writer, saw that you had written a story of one hundred pages, I was amazed. I realized that if you, a person of my age group, could write that much, so could I. I could try writing seriously. If I'd never met you, I would have never gotten this far. I would never have signed up for the literary magazine. I would never have gotten into the Neopian Times, even if you don't know what the Neopian Times is.

I'm still amazed by what you do. You write almost daily, while my writing practically depends on the weather. Please, don't question whether you're a decent writer or not. Maybe nobody's perfect, but it's just...amazing. It's amazing that you're this dedicated to writing. I admire what you do. You are one of my role models. I want to be like you and hopefully become a 100-pages-16-or-maybe-14-pt-font writer, or better. Seriously...don't give up.

[Tam]

These are in no particular order, by the way. If anything, they're almost chronological.

I don't know you. In fact, I know absoloutely nothing about you except that without you, I quite literally wouldn't be here -- here at the NTWF, a part of this this brilliant community of talented, insightful, amazing people. I wish I knew you, but I hope you realize what you started, and how much we all appreciate it.

Some of the strongest and oldest memories I hold on this forum are filled with you. I've never met anyone like you. You think you're different, and you are -- in a world where darkness sometimes seems to fill every corner of every soul, you have the strength to rise above it all, to look the world in the eye and see the beauty there. You will make the world a better place. Just remember that no matter how different, how alone you feel, there will always be someone by your side.

You are my primary source of inspiration. You're also one of the people who drew me to the NTWF in the first place. I figured that if this forum could be home to such a gifted and brilliant writer as I saw you as, it must be worth checking out. And it was. I don't often get the chance to talk to you, mostly because your life is so full. I still love to see you around, though. You're one of the wisest people I know, and no matter how sporadic your appearances are, you are more than a pillar of the forum. You're a role model for all of us.

Our history is an interesting one, yours and mine. We knew each other from Neopets before the NTWF, and it was only thanks to a mutual friend that we were introduced in the first place. You think my work is great -- I think yours is fantastic. You're bold, clever, and you have the rare gift of true wit. You will go far, and if you keep developing your talents at this rate, you will attract a fan following, and a friend following, that most of us can only dream of.

I still haven't gotten to some of the most important ones. xD I'll be back to edit soon.

[Deleted]

<3



You were pretty much the first friend I ever made. You sense of humor is hilarious and you always end up making me laugh with your puns and muffiness. I've seen you grow, in a way. From just a nobody to the star you are now. You're an amazing writer, as much as you try and deny it. I can't imagine what I'd be without you. Never give up. There are some people in the world who can truly reach out and touch that star if they really try, and I know you're one of them.

Before, you were just a person I didn't know. Somebody I looked up to and admired so much. Never, not once, did I think I'd ever get the chance to meet you, let alone become your friend. I was so touched that day you decided to PM me, the clueless newbie. Ever since then we just seemed to meet and chat and share crazy inside jokes. You're so fun and nice and just an amazing person. I'm so happy to know you, and even more happy to call you my friend.

Weewoo! You are the greatest. You're so random and funny and your imagination is one of the most vivid I have ever seen. You're a great friend, so encouraging and bright and nice. You rawk. Period.

Nobody knows who you are. But that doesn't matter. You're precious to me. I can't write something like this without mentioning you, even if the chances are you'll never read it. You're just an incredible person. The awesomest friend ever. We've had so many good times it'd take years to count all the inside jokes and laughs we've shared. ! forever~

The last letter now goes out to you and you. Because even if you're not around anymore, you were the first. And I'll cherish you both forever.

[kittygirl]

You changed my life. You made me ok with whoever I was at a time when I had no idea who I was. You were my best friend in the world. I won't go any further, it's probably already obvious, but you're an amazing person. One of my favorites.

You make me want to be just like you, but I'll never been able to.

You are just the same as the one above you.

You are so energetic. I love it. I feel happy when I'm around you. I thought I knew something about you and I was wrong but that shouldn't change anything.

You are a great leader. Keep it up.

[lemmykoopa300]

Dear you. Just thanks.

You introduced me here, and though I still feel a bit out-of-the-loop (after 4 years now too, jeeze!), I'm happy I'm here. You also are always very nice... *remembers the petpet gift from a while back*

[Sock]

Does it have to be someone from the NTWF, or can it be anyone under the sun?

[Sq]

sockmonk said:

Does it have to be someone from the NTWF, or can it be anyone under the sun?

It can be anyone. After all, we'll never know who you're writing it to. ~_^

[♥ Rain]

You make me feel inspired and strong. You make me wonder if there's really hope for all that I am--if you can do it, who will say that I cannot? When I read what you write, though I'm sure it's not fun on YOUR end, it makes it seem so wonderful on this end... and it's from that conclusion that I find inspiration. You are still one of my favorite writers, and I think that if I heard your name attached to a book, I would buy it. Pretty much no matter what.

You make me grin. Both of you. I can't help but think of you together, because you ARE together. I hope it won't change. You make me feel welcome in such a strange way. A nice warm feeling comes when talking to you and I can't explain why. I guess I just find you funny and smart and I love that combination. It's like my mom, in a way. Except only one of you could be my mom. Anyhow. You're still here on the forum. I hope you two don't leave. Slowly the people I have loved to listen to and gain wisdom of one sort or another have left. You guys are some of the reason I'm staying here. You make it worth it.

You are a very encouraging person. I've gotten disgruntled at you, but I know you don't mean harm. But you're here and you're spreading love all over, even to those undeserving of your cheer. Don't be afraid to be sad, though. Everyone is sad. I expect people to be sad once in a while. It makes me like them more. Continue to spread your sunshine, as long as it lasts. I promise that this whole forum will cherish it.

You are such a good friend. A person that I've known a long time. We have our spats--yes, even more than we have with our other friends--but I think that we'll manage to stay strong. We still have so many ties that bind us, not the least of which is our faith, which needless to say is hard enough to find now-a-days. I love to see you; your wacky comments always manage to make me smile. The memories I have of us playing together is a ray of sunshine that I should come back to more often. Please forgive me of all these ways I have wronged you. I know we can be friends for a lot longer.

You know, I wish I could get to know you better. That we could be friends. I don't know if it's possible, or how to go about it. You seem so serious most of the time that I see you, but that makes me admire you. And in the moments you do seem very cheerful, it makes me break out into a grin. If you're happy, there must be something to be happy about. It was your apparent seriousness that made me wonder if I could be friends with you. In this world of strangeness, there should be someone that still has that edge, but is less bright. You appear even better for the lack of light, because it stands out. I'd still like to get to know you better.

You. Oh dear. You don't know me that well, and I'm not sure how well I'd want to know you, but I do love seeing you around, when you are around. Hah... it's like... for some reason... it's just nice to see you there. I have no clue why. But I've gotten used to you and I'm very attached to seeing you around. My friends like you too, so you're obviously a nice person. Stick around, will you?

[Sock]

Alright then. Some of these are NTWFers, some aren't.

Dear you, you are my best friend in the world. You are one of the best people I've ever met, and I enjoy every single conversation I have with you. I honestly don't know what I'd do if you weren't my friend, even though we've had our share of bad times as well. You're hilarious, I haven't ever laughed as hard as I have in conversations with you. Even though you live halfway across the world, I hope we're friends forever. I love you like crazy. <3

Dear you, you can always bring a smile to my face. You're a warm, accepting individual and one of my best friends. You're mah platonic lovah, I can't help but love you! <3 But seriously, you're really great.

Dear you... Our opinions differ like crazy. We don't have a single conversation where we don't debate about something, but I still think of you as a friend and although I strongly disagree with some (well, a lot) of your opinions, I think you're a genuinely good person.

Dear you, you've been my friend for the LONGEST time. We don't talk much any more, but I think you're awesome. I feel like I could probably tell you anything. I'll never forget Smarauders and the PMs we used to send back and forth. xD

Dear you, we hardly talk at all, but you were my first online friend (and first real friend, really). I think had circumstances been different, you would've been my best friend through all of these years, and I mean it.

Dear you, you're so warm and welcoming and friendly, and hilarious, too. You laugh at all my jokes! Thank you.

Dear you, I wish we could talk more! You're a really neat person and have a lot of interesting insight on things. I respect you a lot.

Dear you, you're so much fun. You can always make me laugh and I love talking to you, even if we don't as much as we used to anymore. Thank you for being my friend all those years. <3

Woo, vague~ I might have more later, too. xD

[lemmykoopa300]

It's wonderful to hear you play piano sometimes in morning. Makes my whole day.

You... you always make me laugh. :3

You used to be so sweet, and still are, but... what happened?

You probably have the biggest influence on my writing.

I wish I could solve Rubik's cubes like you.

[Deleted]

You get on my nerves. You take a lot of things I do for you for granted. You are waaay too uptight. And yet you are amazing and so incredibly smart. Seriously, how do you do the things you do? I cannot imagine life without you.

[Kathleen]

The last two are real-life. :3

I’ve been friends with you for a while. Maybe you don’t know it, but you’re the reason I came here. You are the craziest, most ridiculous person I know, and I’m proud to call myself your friend. You have such cool ideas, such crazy plans, to be carried out by you and your partner-in-crime. :3 We don’t talk very much alone, but I want you to know that I think you’re awesome.

I don’t know you very well, to be completely honest. I haven’t been your friend for very long, haven’t really earned my place. But you mean so very, very much to me. When I first met you, I never, ever thought I’d someday look for your name, and be disappointed when it wasn’t there. I never thought I’d become so very attached to you. One day you were just another person in the crowd, the next you were someone special, someone dear to me. It happened so fast, I don’t know how, but now you're my friend; someone I look to, and know will be there for me.

You intimidated me for a long time. Many days I wished to get to know you, such a cool person, so different from me, but your personality isn't the best for that, and you're not much of a chatter. And one PM changed all that. I would never dream to say I know you well, but I've seen just a little inside, seen some of what is truly you. And you're a great person that I'm proud to say I know a little bit. We've rambled on about strange little tidbits, weird and wacky things, and I love every moment of it.

You can't possibly know how very much you mean to me. Our talks are often meaningless, our gifts small. But you are my friend. Every day I look forward to your emails, that I know will be waiting to greet me. Every week I wish the days I see you would come faster. I'm so disappointed when we don't get to see each other.

You are my best friend in the whole world. I cannot imagine a life without you; I don't remember I time that you weren't there. No matter what it is, just a laugh, a problem that needs solving, you are always there. Ready to help me, to talk, to share. Ever since you moved away, life's been harder. I live for the times when I visit you, and can talk for hours. But no matter how far away you get, you'll always be right here with me, in my heart. Thank you.

[Sock]

To you,

I know I already wrote a letter to you, and heck, you won't even read this - you don't even go to this forum anymore. But the fact that you wouldn't tell me if something bad happened to you scares the HELL out of me. I always look at secrets on PostSecret or LJSecret or whatever and worry that they're you, and that I'm not seeing that you might have problems. I'm probably just paranoid about all this, but I don't want anything to happen to you. I want you to know that it's OKAY to tell me things and that you're worrying me more by NOT telling me. I've tried to voice it SO many times but you just don't seem to listen. You always shut up right when I start to crack the surface, and you say that you're a doormat and probably wouldn't tell anyone if something seriously bad did happen to you.

Don't you realize how much that worries me?

I'm a very anxious person. I worry more when I don't know then when I do. At least when I do know, it's out in the open and I can do something about it.

WHY DO YOU DO THIS?