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Post by Jove on Nov 1, 2018 11:13:34 GMT -5
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Post by Jove on Nov 1, 2018 16:41:03 GMT -5
Above par today but I will probably keep it goin cause I'm really into this story and I want the good good bits. Already I feel the doubt creep in over every little thing but then I remember: the doubt is what keeps me from writing anything at all so if it sucks it sucks but at least it's written!!
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Post by Jove on Nov 5, 2018 13:17:56 GMT -5
Behind because of a minor depressive episode but I hand wrote a bunch while I was at a clam bake and so I am mostly on track after copying that down and keeping on. On my very first nano my computer broke and I had to handwrite a good 10k of my first novel attempt and so it made me nostalgic to handwrite, but also reminded me why I don't. Other than the hand cramps, typing everything up while deciphering my atrocious handwriting, and you know, the lack of way to get a good word count unless you type it all up. But I did and made it through with a new appreciation for typing words and spellcheck, and so I got about 4000 words now today to get to par, but I know I can do it. I can't wait to get to the good bits of this story, so that drive alone will get me through. And, I'm feeling it today. Shout out to modern medicine!!
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Post by Jove on Nov 6, 2018 17:23:29 GMT -5
I'm stuck! Well, not so much stuck as not really feeling this part of the story and trying to work through it and, I want to jump ahead to the cool fun parts, it's just that there's not even development to build those and also I don't know what all the cool fun parts are exactly? So it's a rough time, and it's not even week 2 really. I'm gonna try a couple things, see if I can't get the magic back.
nvm all i had to do was write a fight scene/action sequence since I love doing those. my peas and carrots
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Post by Jove on Nov 8, 2018 1:20:26 GMT -5
I spent like three hours yesterday hammering out a major plot hole and it melted my brain into what can only be described as a fine paste so that should set the tone for how the rest of it is gonna go.
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Post by Jove on Nov 13, 2018 16:06:01 GMT -5
I've been struggling due to meds related and depression-related stuff, as well as just generally not feeling the story and trying to figure out if I actually don't like or is that just my depression being a big baby and saying everything sucks, still don't have an answer for that! However once I realized there's no reason for this to be a novel and since I already have a diverging kind of narrative anyway I've decided I'm writing a video game. It was news to me but it just honestly works better this way. Think Undertale - a story that makes you question your choices and your morality and the concept of deaths in a video game-y way but with motion controls that actually teach you how to fight as you play, all while imparting messages of violence not being the answer, violence sometimes being the answer, and so and so forth. I'm really having fun with it now, plus having divergent dialogue options and actions makes for huge boosts to the world count, not to mention the work I've put it on world building this thing out. I fell behind for a few days but I'm about to make that up in like no time flat!! And in case you forgot: This is a love story, and 18k there's no romance in sight! Doin great!
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Post by Jove on Nov 13, 2018 18:16:55 GMT -5
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Post by Jove on Nov 14, 2018 18:17:45 GMT -5
I don't know what I'm doing (whats new!!) and I'm really not feelin this story, so I decided to just do something else. What is that something else, I don't know, because I have no clue what I want to write!! I feel like I'm halfway across a rope bridge over a canyon on a windy day and it is terrifying!! That's my update!
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Post by Jove on Nov 19, 2018 10:01:07 GMT -5
Cutting myself some slack and writing a bit of something else for a while seemed to help, whenever I step away from this story I have new and good ideas for what it could be and where it could go, so there's hope yet. I always just want it to be good from the get-go but like anything else it requires time, effort, and a hammer pounding down the rough edges into something smooth and beautiful. What's really helped is a tip I saw on tumblr to put "this is the worst version of this" before a scene (I put it at the very start of my nano) to remind myself I am making a rough sketch of a product that will someday be finished and much more polished. And that has helped a lot. And when it truly doesn't work, it helps to go and try something different for a while and then come back when I feel it call me again.
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Post by Jove on Nov 23, 2018 15:07:23 GMT -5
Not stuck, not lost, just don't what it's all for or why I should go on. To win? To make some sense of the mess I made with my sinful hands?
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Post by Jove on Nov 26, 2018 10:23:36 GMT -5
excerpt. i would die for charward the vegan dragon-bear druid
“They never liked me much there anyway.” Charward observes. “I think they only liked me for my ability to bite a man clean in half. They never wanted to talk about gardening, and they always yelled at me for going to watch the cows.”
GD elbows Lionel who grins. “Well, I can tell you right now that we appreciate you for you, Charward. This is a unique group where everyone's skill sets and interests are represented.”
“That so?” Sal says warily. “And just what are yours, Lionel?”
“I'm the face of the group, of course.” He says, flipping his hair. Everyone rolls their eyes.
“Does that mean you're the leader?” Charward wonders.
“Nah, I think we go by seniority, don't you think?” Fern says. “Age before beauty.”
“How do you figure that, Fern, your mind just might be getting addled in your old age.”
“I think the most powerful should be the leader.” Stella says cheerfully.
“Oh no, I don't think I could handle leadership.” Charward says. Stella blinks.
“Maybe the least obvious? Or the most likely to be diplomatic?”
“Wouldn't that be me, in both cases?” Sal says.
“Nah, I think that would be GD, right? No one expects a human to lead a bunch of demons.”
“Who said I even wanted to be the leader, anyhow?” He sniffs, but is kind of flattered. “Will you actually listen, then, when I tell you not to try and assault some random bystander for being shady?”
“Can't promise nothin.”
“Of course!”
“It depends on the bystander.”
GD sighs.
“I guess then I will accept this dubious honor, if no one else wants it.”
“I still say big guy should be the leader. No one expects a Jupiter to lead.”
“I'm not good at making snap decisions, I just get so hungry and-”
“Yeah, yeah, speaking of hungry-”
“Is all you ever think about food?”
“Well, that and murder.”
“Hopeless. The bunch of you.”
They set off from the passwall.
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Post by Jove on Nov 28, 2018 16:23:05 GMT -5
GOTTA LET EM KNOW
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Post by Jove on Nov 29, 2018 22:49:37 GMT -5
Hey, I did that thing. That I never did before. And now my power is limitless and I cannot be stopped. You should all be afraid.
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Post by Jove on Dec 3, 2018 10:08:26 GMT -5
It's not over til I say it's over. Since I hit 50k with the story only 1/3rd of the way actually done, I've been trying to work on it a bit more. mostly on the worldbuilding. There's a lot of scenes I didn't get to because I insisted on not skipping around (which was smart, it let me develop the relationships between these characters organically so the later relationships don't come out of nowhere) And I. Learned a lot about myself, such as when dealing with the depressed aspect of my manic depression I will hate absolutely anything I write, which doesn't mean what I'm doing is bad and needs to be given up on, as I did in the past when faced with that issue in Nano. Sometimes it really does help just to push through it! If you're struggling with a part of it change that up, nothing is set in stone in the first of all first drafts. I'm excited to see where this story goes as I continue to chip away at it! Oddly, it didn't burn me out but gave me new desire which I think for me is huge. Hopefully I can get it to a point where I can share it with more people.
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