Post by JB on Jul 7, 2012 3:18:54 GMT -5
Hey NTWF,
So I haven't posted here in a long time. Some of you probably don't even remember me, which is fine. But for those who do, you might recall I went through a pretty tough time.
My mother tried to take complete control of my life. I was online schooled against my will and guilt tripped into staying online schooled. She suffered a mental breakdown, and during that time I practically became mother to my three younger brothers. I did laundry, cooked all the meals, did the dishes, put them to bed, etc.
I think some of you may be aware of this, but I was suicidal at points, feeling so utterly trapped in my life. I never attempted it because I was always so aware of what it would cost my family. Still, I felt helpless and so very low.
Eventually I realized that I needed to take proper control of my life. I essentially dropped out of online school and enrolled in my area's high school. I graduated as one of the top of my class and while I didn't get into the post secondary I wanted, I'm still pursuing my dreams of being a filmmaker/actress/jill of all trades. Last summer I signed with an agent and had the chance to be a background extra in a small budget film called "Hiding."
(I'm the girl on the left with the dark hair, palepale skin and blue top making the face/looking at the main actress)
Last April, I was an exhibitioner at the Calgary Comic Expo in Artist Alley.
This summer, I get to go out for auditions for lines on camera, as well as continuing as a background extra. As for my controlling mother, I'll be in my own place as of August 1st.
I just wanted to update you all, let you know I'm alive and that I'm quite well
I wanted to thank all of you for being there during my rough years. Whether you were aware of it or not, you helped me more than words can ever say <3 Thank you.
So I haven't posted here in a long time. Some of you probably don't even remember me, which is fine. But for those who do, you might recall I went through a pretty tough time.
My mother tried to take complete control of my life. I was online schooled against my will and guilt tripped into staying online schooled. She suffered a mental breakdown, and during that time I practically became mother to my three younger brothers. I did laundry, cooked all the meals, did the dishes, put them to bed, etc.
I think some of you may be aware of this, but I was suicidal at points, feeling so utterly trapped in my life. I never attempted it because I was always so aware of what it would cost my family. Still, I felt helpless and so very low.
Eventually I realized that I needed to take proper control of my life. I essentially dropped out of online school and enrolled in my area's high school. I graduated as one of the top of my class and while I didn't get into the post secondary I wanted, I'm still pursuing my dreams of being a filmmaker/actress/jill of all trades. Last summer I signed with an agent and had the chance to be a background extra in a small budget film called "Hiding."
(I'm the girl on the left with the dark hair, palepale skin and blue top making the face/looking at the main actress)
Last April, I was an exhibitioner at the Calgary Comic Expo in Artist Alley.
This summer, I get to go out for auditions for lines on camera, as well as continuing as a background extra. As for my controlling mother, I'll be in my own place as of August 1st.
I just wanted to update you all, let you know I'm alive and that I'm quite well
I wanted to thank all of you for being there during my rough years. Whether you were aware of it or not, you helped me more than words can ever say <3 Thank you.
