Stal with immense lag
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Post by Stal with immense lag on Dec 1, 2004 0:56:54 GMT -5
It's like the University decided to kill all bandwidth. I can access Univ pages just fine and in an instant. Anything outside that, though, is like really slow and almost doesn't even load. Cry.
*kicks the university PCs*
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Post by huggsy on Dec 1, 2004 1:23:25 GMT -5
Hey everyone. Today is a great day for wallowing in self pity. Care to join me?
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Post by Stal on Dec 1, 2004 1:26:13 GMT -5
Hey everyone. Today is a great day for wallowing in self pity. Care to join me? Sorry to hear that. Today was a great day for me. Considering I got a very great phonecall tonight...
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Post by huggsy on Dec 1, 2004 1:27:53 GMT -5
Sorry to hear that. Today was a great day for me. Considering I got a very great phonecall tonight... Great news Stal, glad to hear that.
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Post by Spot on Dec 1, 2004 1:31:28 GMT -5
Hey everyone. Today is a great day for wallowing in self pity. Care to join me? Sorry, already preoccupied with wallowing in confused emotions.
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Post by huggsy on Dec 1, 2004 1:33:25 GMT -5
Sorry, already preoccupied with wallowing in confused emotions. Whats up Spot? *crush hugglez*
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Post by Stal on Dec 1, 2004 1:46:02 GMT -5
In case you all didn't see the results of my phonecall:
Yui called me about 8:40 my time, tonight. That's 9:40 her time, and she had worked that night, so obviously she was tired. But she called, and that's always an uber-happy occasion to make me giddy. So we talk, and eventually John comes up.
She's so torn up right now. She knows she has to end it. She's accepted it's inevitable, that it's closer than ever, but she doesn't want to hurt him. But realizes that, in honesty, it's the best thing for them. Basically stuff I'd heard before
Then she says "Plus I've got these feelings for someone else that have come up" she explains she'd never break up with him only based on that, but it only makes things more difficult and tougher on top of the problems.
So that gives me three possibilities.
A) That person is me. It's gauranteed we'll be together soon, more or less, though who knows how long it will last.
B ) It's not me. After all of this past year, if she doesn't have feelings for me, I need to move on with my life and just give it up.
C) It's not me and I just hold out a bit longer and try harder.
Well, for me, C isn't even a consideration. So that leaves an all-or-nothing approach, and basically at this point it's mostly out of my hands. Little I do will change the outcome. And this thing is coming to a head very soon.
Oh, and there's a slight indication that it's possibility A. She's wasting money on me. I can't afford to go as Yuki to the costume dance. Real tight money situation right now. When she heard that, she was very very insistent that she would help me out and all I need to do is bring with me a pair of black pants and be ready. She's even buying a wig.
Or so she says. Like, I was telling her she should waste what little money she has on me, but she was beyond insistent and I finally relented and said "Look, I'm not condoning this, but if you absolutely want to, go ahead." and that seemed to please her.
Spending money on me, for a costume that may run a bit high? o.o;
Well, at least it indicates a good close friendship.
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Post by huggsy on Dec 1, 2004 1:49:44 GMT -5
Then she says "Plus I've got these feelings for someone else that have come up" she explains she'd never break up with him only based on that, but it only makes things more difficult and tougher on top of the problems. . In my opinion, it could be you. Three girls (ex-Girlfriends) have said that to me before asking me out. I dont want you to give up though, if you truly love her, which I think you do, I wouldn't give up.
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Post by Spot on Dec 1, 2004 1:53:30 GMT -5
Whats up Spot? *crush hugglez* This. *Is in a got-her-first-kiss stupor* Sooooo emotionally dizzy ... @__@
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Post by Stal on Dec 1, 2004 1:59:12 GMT -5
In my opinion, it could be you. Three girls (ex-Girlfriends) have said that to me before asking me out. I dont want you to give up though, if you truly love her, which I think you do, I wouldn't give up. *smite* If it's situation C, there is no hope, Huggsy. She knows I have deep feelings for her and care about her immensely. I told her that myself. She found out recently I wasn't as "over her" as I'd indicated. Plus she knew back in August of '03 when I started crushing on her because if I didn't tell her, someone else would. She's just grown to be a real real good friend of mine since then, and my feelings for her have grown stronger and stronger. We both agreed then to just be friends for awhile (little did I know she had been stuck on John for about 2 years at that point, and things were finally moving towards them getting together). Come December of '03, I expect to leave the Lexington gathering with a new girlfriend. Instead I meet John, who is her pseudo boyfriend, fresh from a breakup himself just two months earlier. Throws everything out of whack. Long story short, I befriend John and tell myself to just bide my time. As April passes I decided, hell, I need to move on with life. Easier said than done. Pinecrest (summer camp this June) comes and goes and they get together officially, which hurt me more than I thought it would. And now, after about a year of being together officially her and John are getting ready to break up and she's got feelings for someone else. After all I've gone through, if that person isn't me, than I need to move on. It's just that simple. Her and I are tight friends. Very tight and veyr close. She confides in me...not just everyone knows about the problems with her and John and about how worried she is about what will happen when they finally break up, including reactions from friends. We can talk about nearly everything, and she knows almost all there is to know about me--even my darkest skeletons in the closet. I've been there for her, vice versa, yeah. Hard to describe, but if after all of this... No, I'm not making myself into an emotional wreck if it's not me. I will buck up, move on, and can always attempt something with Rachel (not Kiddo's roommate) again. I almost did this past October, but didn't think it'd be fair if something did happen with Yui and John and then my heart would be elsewhere...very unfair for Rachel.
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Post by Spot on Dec 1, 2004 2:18:07 GMT -5
Long story short, I befriend John and tell myself to just bide my time. As April passes I decided, hell, I need to move on with life. Easier said than done. Pinecrest (summer camp this June) comes and goes and they get together officially, which hurt me more than I thought it would. I knew you mentioned Pinecrest somewhere at one point. I haven't been there in forever (going back to when I was a young kid, and can't remember going >.> ), but I've been considering signing up to go again. ...I could meet Stal IRL.
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Post by Stal on Dec 1, 2004 2:20:18 GMT -5
I knew you mentioned Pinecrest somewhere at one point. I haven't been there in forever (going back to when I was a young kid, and can't remember going >.> ), but I've been considering signing up to go again. ...I could meet Stal IRL. I think I've mentioned this before... :x The Pinecrest I speak of is a week long church camp that my church hosts. It is held at the Pinecrest campgrounds in Fredericktown, MO, which is owned by a real nice Nazarene couple. So unless you're a member of UCG (or some other related church group...), Spot, I doubt I'd be seeing ya. XP This isn't the Pinecrest swimcamp in Florida either...
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Post by Spot on Dec 1, 2004 2:25:16 GMT -5
I think I've mentioned this before... :x The Pinecrest I speak of is a week long church camp that my church hosts. It is held at the Pinecrest campgrounds in Fredericktown, MO, which is owned by a real nice Nazarene couple. So unless you're a member of UCG (or some other related church group...), Spot, I doubt I'd be seeing ya. XP This isn't the Pinecrest swimcamp in Florida either... Yes, I'm talking about the church affiliated Pinecrest. Though I think I went to the one in Sussex, NJ when I went way back when.
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Post by My email doesn't work anymore on Dec 1, 2004 6:18:46 GMT -5
[So erm, what happened on those now non-existent pages that I missed?]
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Post by huggsy on Dec 1, 2004 6:24:58 GMT -5
Dudes, I think Neonick and Rider are in love, they keep posting with each other, EVERYWHERE. On my RPG preview thread, on the Kat and JH duel, even here!!!
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